Friday, June 4, 2010

YURTY THIRTY!




As of this Monday, yours truly will finally be a grown up. Or so I hope. I told my Dad, however, the day that I turned thirteen that I was a "real woman." He chuckled and then agreed whole heartedly, and continues to remind me of my profound telling on that day . . . I wonder, though, when it will ever ring true. Sometimes when I get carded buying a bottle of wine, I pause and quiver thinking "holy hell, I'm like 17," before I realize that I'm of age, and far beyond. Often I still feel like that little girl in high school who marched to the beat of her own tambourine sometimes, but got swept away by the currents of the changing tides of popularity. Since high school, the ebbing and flowing has taken on a new wave, nevertheless, my twenties were churned up with Saturn returning and me feeling sucked down and out by the undertow. And so now, almost thirty, will these troubled waters float me to a more steady and calm shore? I don't know, but I feel the current now and it feels great. Warm like the waters of Sayulita that just caresses my skin and soothing like the hot mineral bath that welcomed and released me with not a pruned finger to speak of. These waters, the kind I imbibe, swim in and cry, have proven to change recently, a shifting tide indeed. I hope the cold waters of Big Sur help shock me into this new third decade of mine where I may finally be able to say with truth and pride that I am a real woman, a real version of me.

Big Sur Love!

13 comments:

佳慧 said...

凡是遇到困擾的問題,不要把它當作可怕的,討厭的,無奈的遭遇,而要把它當作歷練、訓練和幫助。 ..................................................

廖淑凡 said...

The more haste, the less speed. ............................................................

comfies said...

seriously? is that a spam comment that appears to be speaking cryptic words of wisdom to your beautiful birthday post? only in your world, sweet sarah! gosh i miss you! and happy day before your birthday...

batesda said...

人有兩眼一舌,是為了觀察倍於說話的緣故。............................................................

molly said...

big sur love, big SURE love!
happy b'day girlfriend, can't wait to celebrate with you!

Vi2139 said...

向著星球長驅直進的人,反比踟躕在峽路上的人,更容易達到目的。..................................................................

則義 said...

你不能左右天氣,但你可以改變心情.............................................................

木堯木堯 said...

人因夢想而偉大,要堅持自己的理想哦......................................................................

信豪信豪 said...

一棵樹除非在春天開了花,否則難望在秋天結果。.................................................................

KrisMcmillen07星美 said...

成熟,就是有能力適應生活中的模糊。.................................................................

吳婷婷 said...

人生是故事的創造與遺忘。............................................................

kio said...

hi!~~leave you a message to say hello, and thanks for your share!..................................................................

張怡 said...

沒有經過反省的人生,是不值得活的人生..................................................